WOW THAT WAS SOME MONTH

As luck would have it November proved to be a not so great of month for Landon! Sometimes if there was no such thing as bad luck he would have no luck at all! On November 12th Landon was on Bangeter and as the light turned yellow he went thur it following a police car moments later he was being pulled over for running the red light, when Landon mention he didn't think it was red when he entered the intersection the policeman said I know it was cause it was red when I went thur it, Landon commented well then you are admitting you ran a red light too, he claimed that the policeman then backed out of that statement! next when the officer asked for his license Landon didn't have it....Ughhhh! so as the officer was watching landon removed his cell phone from his pocket saying I can call my mom and she can read my number to you, this is when the officer said oh you know that I can ticket you for texting while driving......Landon said to him how? you could not have seen me as you were in front of me and second you just watched me remove my phone from my pocket. He ended up with a ticket for running a red light.

On November 29 there was a big snowstorm during the middle of the night so when we woke up it was a big mess! the roads were very slippery, Landon had gotten a good start in heading to school he left in plenty of time he had made it to the school but as he was turning into the parking lot he slid and hit the curb.....now he "promises" that he was not going any faster than 10 MPH when he finally comes to a stop he is stuck you might say he was high centered on the curb and snow, he neglected to get out to see what damage was done when he automaticlly put the car in reverse and tried to get out, it has not been told how long he tried to get his car out by spinning the tires when the school officer came up and assest the damage advising him that he had bent the wheel and he thought the car was not driveable....he came a little late, as Landon was spinning the tires he had ran them for so long that he completly wore out the two front tires leaving them completely bald. He finally called me asking what he should do? why me when your dad is 5 minutes away? I called Bill to go and see what needed to be done. It came to be that the car had to be towed once it reached the repair shop they estimated that the damages was roughly 2500.00 dollars....the car is only worth 1400.00 I would say he has totalled out my old car. the damage to the car was a bent sub frame, bent wheel and tire rod......so really how FAST was you driving.....but let's remember 10MPH HA!

What can you say to a kid who knows everything! I know......Maybe you don't! oh to live and learn! Good thing I still love you Landon Karl Hart!

YEP IT'S BROKEN

It was a great Labor day weekend, things were going good. Tanner's friend Scott was staying with us for a week while his parents were in Powell. The day was actually labor day, Bill and Tanner we all hyped up it was a great day for a bike ride up at "The Canyons" They have a summer season pass for the lift they are way into mountain biking their favorite is to ride the lift up then go as fast as they can down some mountain trail. Tanner is getting really good, but he also like to jump and do tricks it was in the late afternoon and they had found a new jump it was called "Niagra Falls" he watched a few other kids jump it and felt good that he could do it too. Off he went peddling up so he could give it a try. He starts off good but misses the landing it was in a very rocky area he goes up and over the handle bars hitting the ground he is well protected he wears a helmet, neck brace, a spine brace and chest protector knee and elbow guards. When he hits the ground he land on his chest he felt nothing different than any of his other crashes he is just mad that he didn't make the landing, he jumps up to get his bike and that's when he notices that there is something wrong with his wrist, he yells to Bill that he thinks he broke his arm Bill comes over thinking he is over reacting as he had watched the crash and doesn't think that it looked all that bad.....He was wrong when he got to Tanner he could instantly tell it was broken it was distorted. Now how to get Tanner and his bike and Bill's bike off the mountain, they were a was away from the truck. Bill leaves Tanner to go for help, the patrol comes to help they put Tanner and his bike in the back of a 4 wheeler the kind that has a bed and hauls him off the mountain. I get a call telling me they were on the way to the Park City hospital Bill didn't think Tanner could handle the ride to the hospital in Murray he would call me when he knew something. While we wait for an update call, I take Scott around the neighborhood to pick up flags that the scouts had put out for the Holiday. Bill called about an hour later letting me know that it was a broken wrist he had broke the growth plate in half along with another bone, they were going to put tanner out and pull his wrist back into place. They would be home after all was done, Tanner reached the hospital around 5 in the afternoon and got home right around 11:30 that night. Tanner came home pretty out of it,but hungry! he had requested that I make him my 5 star chicken noodle soup. I had it waiting for him the poor kid could harding stay awake long enough to eat! I have the funnest video of him trying to eat and falling asleep! (I will have to down load it and post it some day!) I got him to bed he slept well that night. He stayed home from school the next two days. 1 week later he got his hard cast on it was bright green his favorite color. He got the cast off 7 weeks later. it is has been off 1 week now it is still sore and he has almost regained all motion back. And yep you got it.....He can hardly wait to go ride again!!! What a guy!

HAS IT REALLY BEEN THAT LONG?.........

I have had a lot on my mind this last month......This time of year always takes me back a few years....... back to a time that brings to the surface some sad times, but a time of growth both spirtually and physically. I remember September 4 1991 like it was yesterday. I can see my little baby Jailee rolling all over my bedroom floor while I was getting ready for work when I was ready to leave I went to pick her up and she was not there, I immedately called her name to only hear her tiny little giggle but I still could not see her, I called her name again to only hear the same giggle and then to see her cute little face pop out from under my bed she was really playing peek-a-boo! I said to her "hey you, you better stop teasing me" by this time she was in a full belly laugh.....I can still hear it! I still to this day remember hearing a voice tell me "take her picture" I grabbed my camera had it in my hand to only look at the time to realize by now that I was running late! I am sorry to say that that picture was never to be. How long would that have taken....really?



My first lesson: when told to do something follow through, slow down!



At work that day I kept having a little anxiety....just an anxious feeling, nothing big! On my way home I was having thoughts like "If something was to ever happen to Jailee what would I do" "I would be devastated" "how would I handle that?" As I pulled onto my sitters street I knew something was going on, kids everwhere, a police car in her neighbors drive way as I got out of the car the officer approached me asked me if I was heading in to pick up my kids, "yes I said" thats when he followed me up the drive way that's when my sitter ran out telling me what one never wants to hear.....She stopped breathing! the ambulance has taken her to the hospital, the officer asking so many question.......It will not sink in for some time that who they were talking about was directed at me, that it was my baby they were talking about...All I thought was I will go pick her up and all will be ok, the doctors will make sure she is ok!



second lesson: Be Strong, have faith



Long night ahead many doctors, x-rays and a special blessing told us that what we wanted most was not in our plans. Nothing would keep her here, no medicine, no surgeries, not even life support. The next day would be the day we would say "Good Bye" We gathered our families and friends and we said our goodbyes, she took one final breath and was gone no more suffering!



Third lessson: Prayers are not always answered the way we want them to.



It has now been 19 years and not one day goes by that a thought, a picture (if only in my head) crosses my mind and I pause for a moment and smile or remember a fond memory of a little girl that touched my life for a short stay but left a huge hug in my heart to last me a life time.



Forth Lesson: That a mothers love last forever!

Many will say.....this is a sad story and yes it is, there is never a good time to lose a child. It is something that one never thinks will happen to them... well I guess in this situation....I am "them" but through faith and the support of family and friends you can go on, be happy and grow! I chose to carry on. Bill and I stayed together, many cannot! I am so glad we were able to.

Fifth Lesson: Good things can still happen after bad things!

Our loved ones that have passed would never want us to sit and be idle, to do nothing but cry over them. It is our job to continue on with our lives....as hard as some days can be!

Sixth Lesson: Its not how many trails we are given.....It's how we handle them that matters!

THOSE WERE THE GOOD OLD DAYS!

As I sit here today thinking how hard it iwas to have 2 little boys. I remember thinking Oh If only they were old enough to do walk or talk, crawl then walk, go to school, thinking that each new pahse would surely be better maybe even easier than the one we were in. Oh don't get me wrong I loved each moment with each of them. But it was so exciting to reach each new milestone! I was finding it hard to wait to see what they could do and say that I just never imagined that one dayI would look back and say Those Were the good old days!!! Each phase is fun that is filled with laughter and happy times with some hard days that bring tears and fears. So if I could offer any advise it would be "don't wish away any day that is shared with your children, life is fast and fragile and the tiny pitter of little feet will be gone before you know it". soon you will be just like me sitting wide awake waiting for Landon to come home with the car wondering........why did I wish for them to grow up....I want my little boys back! I really am excited for Landon to have finally gotten his liecense and have some freedom from me having to take him every where, I think it has sunk in that he has been missing out for the last year that he could have been driving. Now he is almost a Senior in high school he is now realizing that he needs to find a job and take on some responsibilty, be able to provide for himself to an extent....here it is another phase that I could not wait for him to get to....Why do we do this? I am almost certain that in a few years I will be thinking.....Man those were the good old days! I guess I just need to sit back and take it one step at a time! I really am so happy that I have my two boys. Landon and Tanner I do love you! I think it really is amazing how each child is totally different. These two are as different as two can be but each offers me their love and respect in their own way! I am really happy that they are both not to old to tell me that they love me!

So now I can't wait to see what kind of men they will be? I know, I know.....there I go again!

AND THE SUMMER CONTINUES.........

Wow this Summer is going by so fast! I sit here and wonder.....why is life passing by so quickly...I remember when I was young and thinking that I would never get old enough to do the things I want to do like driving, dating, living on my own and having kids, buying a home and just being able to come and go as I please....Now it's here and I have acomplished all of these. Now life is just going so fast! I think man it was just Christmas and now the 4th of July has passed. I also remember my Mom telling me not to rush life that as you get older it goes by faster and faster....Now I am 44 and I want everything to slow down and my kids are wanting all of my dreams! It has been so fun watching them achieve what makes life so exciting! Landon love, love, loves being able to get in the car by himself and go get a drink head to a friends house and he even still likes to run errands for me! (even if it's to drop something off to the DI, haha) and Tanner is having fun with his first job, working at the middle school as a sweeper, ok maybe he is not having that much F U N but he is sure enjoying the $$$$$$ !! He worked all year long as a temp... and now he is working the Summer working 4 hours a day for 3 days a week and hoping to get on full time when school starts up again... tomorrow there will be lay off's for the remainder of the summer he will find out tomorrow if it's him or not! SCARY!!!

Our Car troubles have not ended..Our old Olds break lights were not working all the time. sometimes when we would turn on the left signal the right break light would stop working turn on the right signal and it would work! go figure!!! and just when we would think it was working and we would let Landon take the car we would watch him drive off and as he rounded the corner they were no longer working, we deceided to take it in to see what was wrong??? if you can believe it, it was NOT the break lights at all, but the signal....so they replaced it and WaLa it works GREAT! but it was another $400.00 dollars...Can anyone really ever get ahead with Finances?

Please Don't Pass Out!

I had all but given up on blogging....Why, you might ask? Good question? I myself are not sure... but at last I write again.

This summer is not going how I imagined it, I had dreams of Bear Lake, basking in it's sun, but two weeks before my dream was to be reality Bills truck made a big loud bang just a block away from home and luckily not on I-80 heading to Park City for Tanner's biking group ride. The loud bang was the trucks spark plug blowing up, blowing out the cylinder that holds the plug in. We took it to the dealer that evening to be told that the "repair" would be around $4,000. The "fix" would be close to $1,000. We debated for a moment....a very brief moment and deceided on the "FIX", we had already had another unexpected bill pop up that was putting this added bill over the top. Shall I say it was our vacation - play money! And on top of that Bill had already put money down on a trip to Whistler Canada for he and Tanner to go biking the end of July....So there goes the other planned or dreams for any other vacation.

There have been moments of Happiness! for 1 Tanner turned 15 his birthday was a Saturday, generally that would be a good thing....Not this year, why? because this year he was all ready to take the written test for his learners permit! and being a Saturday the DMV is not open! he had to wait until Wednesday. Wednesday could not come quick enough, we were at the DMV at 7:00 AM, 2nd in line, by the time we filled out the paperwork for Landon to renew his permit and Tanner to take the test and to actually take the test we were there only an hour. At this trip we had some good and bad news....I'll start with the good, Landon was able to renew his permit without retaking the test. I am sure at this point you can guess my bad news.....Tanner didn't pass his test, missed by 1 (ONE) question....Bummer! he comes back over skims through the booklet again and feels confident to retake the test.......Comes back over very longed face to tell me he had missed 4 more than last time. I felt so bad he had studied hard and was so sure he would pass. We go for frapacunnio's from Star Bucks, That made all of us feel a lot better!!

One month past Tanners birthday Bill takes him for another try to pass the test to get his permit.........................and his PASSES! I get a text at work saying "I CAN DRIVE" what a good day!!!

Can I say that for the next week we are driving every night. He really does pretty well considering that he has only drivin in the church parking lot.

Today.....July 6th 2010 Landon finally got his drivers licence, he finally took Drivers Ed the begining of June it was only 9 days of class time, with 6 hours of driving and 6 hours of observation. and $250.00 later and he passed. When we got home from our very long stay at the DMV since it had been a holiday week and they had been closed for a few days there was to say the least a very long line. Landon wanted to go on a drive by himself so he went to the Sandy Skatepark, yes I made him call me when he made it there, What Kind of Mom would I be if I didn't.. We then had hair cut appointments and of course he drove us there, then it was back to the skatepark then to a friends house... back home by 10:30 safe and sound....People tell my FUN is just beginning.....I say I've been having FUN all along!